Paula writes, “I attended your live performance at the Belfry in June, and I thank you for this gift you are sharing with us. I have been waiting to ask the right question as I know so many of the answers are within myself. I do not want to waste an opportunity talking to spirits asking the wrong question. I have recently gone through a wrongful dismissal, end of a 22 year relationship, empty nest, and a move. I am also experiencing menopausal symptoms, and sometimes feel very sad, alone and afraid.
I am trying to be comfortable with the unknown and trying to allow myself to grieve the life that I thought I had and is no more. I feel very guilty concerning my son even though he is grown up. Are my spirit guides close by and supporting me through this. How can I access a closer connection to them without the religious fear that was forced into me as a child. I would love just a few positive thoughts concerning why I had to go through so much hurt my whole life, and just that things will eventually get better. Once again thank you so much for this great gift that you are sharing with all of us.
So much sadness, my blessed one. Sadness. You have followed being good, what you believed to be good. And now you feel all was for naught. Not is all lost, my dear. You have shed what had become a prison. It had to be done this way for you knew yourself that you were becoming lost. Where are your choices and desires? Where is your heart? Hidden. The encouragement does not need to come from us. For you give it to everyone who comes near.
You love, yet you are timid to yell it out loud. It is as if you are a newborn babe, fresh and new–although you may feel weary and worn. If you let go of all of that that was and all of those expectations and all of that old hurt, you will feel unburdened. Fresh. Yes, it should feel a little scary, but it all lies before you in the wonder of what will be. And dearest one, make your choices for you, loving yourself. Feed your being the best food as you would a child. Bring forward into your life the most harmonious of all things. And know that you grow in the wonder of who you are as does a child. Be not afraid, but be in wonder of that that lies ahead of you. Excited, as a child wondering what they will be when they grow up. Wonder as to what you will reflect in the magic of the world you create.
There were reasons for all that was. It is not lost. It has fed you and nurtured you and now you have freed you. You have done this yourself, this magical thing. See it not as something placed upon you as a victim. But you have chosen life, priceless wonder. We await the magic that you shall create.
I’ve become so lost I don’t know how I feel. I think I’m in love with two people who are both in love with me, and I don’t know what to do. My heart hurts so bad, as well as theirs, and I don’t want to cause anyone anymore pain. I want what’s best for me, but I don’t know what that is. Is there any insight or advice you can give me? Thank you so much for all that you all do.