Lately I have been struggling with a sense of belonging. I feel loneliness, emptiness and sadness. Whether it is with friends or family, I look around and feel like I’m on the outside looking in, and I don’t belong.
There are a number of things that I would like to guidance upon and would appreciate some insight to help me through.
1. Victoria, is this the place that I will stay?
2. Will my son and daughter stay in Victoria?
3. Financially, I’ve been struggling for many years. Though I am gainfully employed I do not seem to be able to get ahead. Will I find financial stability?
4. Will I share my life with a partner? What is he like?
5. Guides, I ask you to reveal to me the things I need to implement to help me maintain stability and abundance in all area of my life.
The guide’s response:
Dearest one, thank you for you questions. Know that you must seek answers so that you grow and move forward. So in asking whether or not you move, there is a part of you that believes you should. You must answer that for yourself, why it is you feel this way. You have denied many of your own personal things, in many different situations in life, dearest one. You have often lived your life in service to others. And now you are starting to feel your own needs. Who are you? What do you want? To feel lonely is a good feeling for it is a coming to the state understanding that you have separated yourself. To survive, to do for yourself, to fulfill your own needs.
The fact that you are not willing to just chatter on with others to say something, is wisdom. You do not need to fill the air just to fill it with words. You want your words to have meaning and to be your truth. For this time that you are in, at this moment, this is a good thing. Do not rush through it; do not deny your own truth. Walk or be still, listen… but be. Who are you? What did you learn as a child? And what did you not feel comfortable with? Where did you adopt the idea that you must always help others in order to be? These are questions you must ask your own consciousness for locked within there is an attitude that you have no words.
Of course, it was good for your worth to be the caretaker, the giver, the provider. But your worth is greater than all of this for you were the master of that being that provided those things at that time and that is who you are trying to be in touch with now, the one that is busy trying to deflect all identity. Be, my child. Look at your surroundings and look at what you have created to support you and decide what it is you need now. You won’t have the answer right away. You shouldn’t. It took a long time to lose you and it will take a little while to find you. Love and peace and knowing that there is so much more to you just excited to bubble about to the surface. To be free you must experiment with different things, nothing dangerous so do not be afraid. Maybe dangerous in that it is a changing of your understanding dear, but not in the capability of your being. Dance my child. Free that amazing being. Don’t feel afraid, trust.