Nancy – My dear guides , my question is concerning a course I would like to take and the situation here in France is they are not giving any financial help to do so . I am working and took this new job in a nursing home i am not to sure how long they usually give you a contract but because of this contract unemployment France refused to help me financially because I am working right now . I would like to take this course for Patisseries because my husband and I want to buy a small cafe here in France . But the course is to expensive and need some financial help and if I am working they are not going to pay for it ! I understand but should I stop working at the nursing home because to be honest this job now make me sick I do not want to do this anymore . I want to start doing something who is more pleasant and course here in France find work as been very hard and I am happy to have one but now having this job is stoping me to move forward so I can take this course for 9 months but I need financial help . I have no ideal what to do stop working for awhile so I can have unemployment and them apply for the course and after the course my husband and I could look to buy a small cafe some where in France or should I continue in the nursing home and wait to see ????? Thank you my guides as well every day I ask you to be with me to do this job who you do know is not in my heart anymore and I ask you to give me strength courage and understanding and love … Thank you I am grateful.
Oh mon petit chou, you worry so much. I wonder why it is you fear your own inner voice. You need to trust in yourself, my dear. For when you push yourself beyond your state of peace, or happiness, you become ill. And knowing this you still work past it.
You keep quiet this great desire except to the one you love, but you need to start making more noise about that that you need to do. The burdens you create for yourself are your own doing. Do you know this my dear?
Instead of choosing that that brings happiness and joy you choose that that makes your feet feel like they are in cement and that your heart is wearing a shroud. Let go of all the “have to” and start choosing the “want to.” To experience the light, the happiness you do not even need to take this course. You need to just step into that that you want to be and be it, my dear. Be it! Be that that you are. You are very personable and people love to talk with you. You could do this without any difficulty. The two of you could work side by side and work out many things together.
It is up to you, of course. The choice must be made by you to choose; to look for someone else to give you the right, or the okay to do something, or look to yourself and choose it. For ultimately, my dear, you must be the one to do the work. What do you want to do?
Stop listening to everyone else’s advice and take your own. Listen to that great teacher that has never failed you. inside of you. You can’t say you’ve been surprised by anything that has occurred. You already knew many things in your path and yet you constantly looked to someone else to be given permission.
Give yourself permission my blessed one, my shining light. You can do this. Bless you, for you are loved.