Firstly, this dearest one needs to rest. Rest also from a very strong sense of obligation and responsibility to others. This is what has truly drained her with her healing, her nursing, as it were. It began to be destructive to her because she gave so much and truly exhausted her being.
But she will usually do this with many beings in her life and she must be aware of this. Never was she not a good nurse; she is a very good healer, has great ability, but gets caught up with too much responsibilities. And not just with these patients but with others as well… the chitter chatter. She wants peace and calm and quiet.
Dear one, do not absorb yourself completely in your mate’s work. Help, yes; but also you must seek out that that which is yours. Seek out that that you find peace within, dearest one. You must take time for you.
Yes. Dear one, in time you will not even ask those questions. You will give freely and openly and know that this is what you were meant to do. And in the network of life you will see one day, when time is clear, how you affected all. But right now, do not concern yourself with these things. Trust.
Also, understand that sometimes in giving great chaos occurs. You have empowered beings to take on their work; don’t be afraid of the result. Do that that is driven with yourself or by the energy around you. It is often believed that the human condition expects the human condition to occur. Expect all things to be growing and moving forward and you will not be disappointed.