Breathe in the life of being who you are
Linds writes: I am in recovery and this past year has been a struggle for me as I must come to terms with a new way of living. I am feeling so spiritually disconnected in my life, more so now than I ever have before. I feel like I’m holding myself back but I’m not sure why I can’t just surrender. Sometimes the emotional pain is so overwhelming that I just want to run away and start a new life. I don’t know where such pain is coming from. I am usually a free spirit but I feel so trapped right now trying to do the “right” thing nd please
everyone else. I am trying to get back in school but now it’s a waiting game. Will it happen for me and have I chosen the right direction? Also I am seeing a man and wondering if I am heading down the right path with him? I am tired of meaningless relationships and his feels very real, but I’m not sure if the age difference is a factor. Thank you and God bless.
Dearest one, it would be very good for you to sit and contemplate free will. It is in everyone’s domain, in your body, free will to choose, to observe, to make choices. And in this, where it dwells not only in the physical, but in the spirit body, you chose to enter into this physical world before you were completely ready. (I say you weren’t completely ready but you did choose that you were ready). What this causes is a feeling of being out of step with the world, out of synch with that that you had come to learn, to process, promises set in motion. And so because of this you took a few diversions from your path, made a few choices almost to halt the uncomfortable feelings. Out of free will you chose this and out of free will you now understand this. And you choose to have the life of who you be.
You are still in a state of somewhat trying to catch up with others and be somewhere you are not. So the best and most loving thing to do is to know this and stop trying so hard.
Laugh at the situation. Find humor, separate yourself from all those who talk of how to and what to be. And just breathe. Breathe in the life of being who you are—whole, strong, able to make choices. Making choices to give you what you need—a life that is strong and
loving. This being in your life is helpful and wondrous. But it is too soon to choose if it should be forever, too soon to worry about ages and dimensions. Being out of synch
does not mean that you are not wholly and completely needed in this world. For you see beyond the layers that others provide; it is one reason why you chose a few layers. You see the truth in other beings, and you are not afraid to speak of it. And in time, as you grow in your own free will, you will find that you are a great teacher. But do not worry as to how he teacher will be or should be. Just know that you do, you are. And know that there is greatness that lies within, to give—when the time is right. Bless you my child. Bless you for being willing—to learn, to grow, to love.
Dear guides and ladies, I am sorry that I keep bringing this topic up, but it is really driving me nuts…I am so conflicted about the concept of polyamory and monogamy. OK, please hear me out guides. I realize when you answered my last question, you said to me that,” deep inside you feel there is one person for everyone forever, to be. If you want this, you can have it if you wish.” And I know you have said that neither polyamory or monogamy are wrong or right… BUT, I read all these channeling websites and new agey sites that basically say that monogamy is not natural, that polyamory is perfectly acceptable, that a lot of humans aren’t meant to be with one person. SO, of course I have figured out if there is no wrong or right in the grand scheme of things, then polyamory is not “wrong.” But deep inside, I feel that it is not the highest form of romantic love. You guys seem to tell me,”whatever I want is ok, but there is no better or worse.” That doesn’t seem right. Tell me this, guides, would I be a more evolved soul if I were poly? I mean, DUHHHH, I can love many people. I have much room for love in my heart. Sure I could love Jake, Rob and Joe romantically, but even if I had the time to, I just feel like it is best to distill this love with one person. You know, I could love many people but love one romantically. Now I know you guys may respond by saying, “Oh dear one, you must love yourself, don’t worry, just do what feels best, don’t worry about what other people do…”But I really want to know…Is monogamy the right choice? I feel like, and please forgive me for sounding like a snob, that I am around all of these confused people that, while I realize it does take a high level of evolution to have an open relationship, are really just having second childhoods and are kind of shallow and ULTIMATELY about sex. I don’t know. Guides, are some alien species monogamous? I just feel like even if I did not experience insecurity or jealousy, if I was perfectly comfortable with myself, that monogamy is the “highest” form a romantic relationship can take and that I would want it. Am I wrong? Have I always held this stance in previous lifetimes? Should I “Evolve” and become poly? Oh, I know you do not make judgments…But maybe you can give me the advice I need on this subject because it is drivin’ me nuts. Oh, and honestly, I think the highest form of love is platonic love–what do you think? Y’know, because there is ultimately no objectification involved…I know my question was long. Thank you guides n’ ladies for reading, listening and answering. Thank you!
Dear guides I have been having so many memories of past a life in Egypt 3000bc is the latest….there has been another really dominate one…..You know I was a deity ? All of the knowlege is coming to me……I know I am meant to live this LIFE…..just being and allowing…..but can you please give me a little guidence so much energy coming threw me at time…… Thank-you guides
My life has taken many twists and turns. I’ve been a professional social worker, addict and streetwalker. Today, I’m employed as a traffic control person while I await a pardon, afterwards I plan to resume Social Work with a keen eye on doing something to heal and resolve the issues of dead/missing prostitutes in our communities. Poetry flows, research continues but I am at a lose on how to further pursue my life purpose. A few weeks ago, my night was filled with red dots on a google type map, which were pointing me in the direction of bodies…I have been interviewed by R.C.M.P, with hopes of producing key information. However, the drugs at the time, clouded my memories and rendered me seemily useless. It’s not a popular subject, even among my social work peers and I feel a lose of direction…perhaps the guides can help me!! I will be at your Jan 6th workshop and look forward to your response.,