I recently met a man who intrigues me very much. On one hand I feel we connect and he has had spiritual insight about me that not many others have picked up on. I feel he is a good, spiritual, and genuine person. However, there are some things that are holding me back from truly accepting him. One is that we are of different religions which, for me, seems very problematic on many different levels. Second, his current income is low which really bothers me although I know it probably shouldn’t. I am wondering why this disturbs me as much as it does. Third, I feel like I may be more drawn to travel and freedom than he is, which I can’t tell if this is because he hasn’t been exposed to much travel or the possibility thereof, or something else. Last, he has two children from prior relationships and I just always saw myself with someone like me with no kids. The thing is, it has been almost 10 years since my last relationship and I feel like I have not really experienced love in this life and it is something I really desire (I’m 35 for crying out loud!!). I have also recently been seeing “visions” so to speak of children when I really haven’t thought much of kids in the past. What is this man’s role in my life and if it is not a permanent one, will I ever have love here? If it is a long-term and/or permanent role, how do I work through these issues?
Dearest one, dear one, you try very hard to dot all of the I’s and cross all of the T’s, to look into every corner and every quiet moment to seek the message that is stamped all over you, that all others see but you do not. It happens because you have asked over and over to be shown, a love, a light, a place to be, but you have been so busy asking you have not been still enough to see, to hear, to be, to understand that you are a fracture of light that is so perfect. You have concepts about your being as not being perfect. And at this time you are radiating out to others, seeking to find yourself in another’s place of being. This being, like many, has come into your life to help you to see you. This will cause you anger and frustration and fear. Is it good to see you? Yes, my dearest. Do not do battles against yourself or any other part of your being. Love your being and be that that you are. If you choose willingly to do this you will draw to your heart a love that you believe exists. Trust and be my child. Be the light that you are and all that you will attract will be there as well. Have I answered your questions? You will not see it at first. Be still and listen and you shall. Bless you my child.