Joan wonders why these things are happening in her life.  Her life has been turned upside down with her husband’s illness.  She says, “I don’t know how to handle the next little while. I don’t know what is in store for me.”

Dearest Joan, believing is not controlling, wanting is not necessarily being fulfilled.  You have now presented before you a great gift, but you are a little overwhelmed by all of it.  Your direction was in another way.  You felt that what you did was to fill a time now, instead of that that would be.

Dearest one, mostly you need to let go of all that you thought would be, and see what truly is there.  This being loves you, in a way that you never allowed him to do.  But you have given all signs that you care and now there is great confusion between the two.  Take a deep breath.  Witness all that is: your actions, the other’s actions.  You are one very wise being.  Always felt you were ahead of each step, never to be surprised.  In fact you didn’t like surprises.

There are great things in store for you my dearest.  Do not rush through this time.  Do not make a quick decision.  Allow things to heal.  Allow a rebirth to take place.  Bless you my dearest.