My heart seems confused about a decision I need to make. I met this man in France and now things are getting more serious for him over there and me in Canada .
He asked me to marry him. I am afraid of marriage again and being hurt again!
I feel so afraid to leave everything–my job where I have been for so long and my roots. Afraid of money to support myself over there and the difficulty in finding a job I would enjoy doing . He has children I don’t have children and I wonder if his children will accept me, especialy is daughter who is very close to him and seems to challenge me, a new woman in her father’s life. Do I have a promise with her ?
Do I have a promise with this man ? If so what is it? We are so so different in so many ways but seem to connect in other ways I’ve never felt before. I ask myself how would I know after all the work I am doing on myself. I take time to breathe and listen to my voice inside, but still I am wondering. Still I am confused and afraid.
The guide’s response:
Blessed, blessed child, you always wanted children, why not embrace them? No, not to be mother perhaps, but just to be part of their life in a special and wondrous way. See this not as a burden but a great wealth, an opportunity to gain great wonder, and excitement and happiness.
Dearest one, you have often looked upon your path as such a burden instead of such a blessing. Look at the wondrous opportunities you’ve had to grow, to become much more enlightened, or light I shall say. Dearest one, you sparkle with enthusiasm sometimes, but in your innermost thoughts you believe you do not deserve one minute of happiness.
Life is not a debt, it is a gift. Take it, blessed one. If you were presented with a gift would you fuss and worry that the gift would not be appropriate to you? You should just say “thank you.” Bless you, my child.