I am feeling very sad and angry with myself right now. I am afraid that I have done something awful. I am normally a somewhat passive person who never rocks the boat and who tends to leave a bad situation rather than deal with it or be assertive or aggressive. I recently left a job working for a business that I felt was lacking in integrity, honesty and ethics. I knew about these things when I worked there, but said nothing because I wanted to keep my job. However, since leaving, part of me is thrilled to move on with my life, but another part of me holds back and wants revenge. Along with some of my former co-workers who are also angry, we sent letters describing the unethical practices that this business engaged in because we felt that to keep quiet would be wrong on our part.
I thought I would feel satisfaction in doing this and be able to finally move on completely, but instead I feel terrible. I don’t think I really did this for the right reasons, as I really just wanted to “get back” at this business for how I was treated. I really want to send out positive, healing energy into the world and I am afraid I have sent out a lot of bad energy and now I am worried. I would like to know: What it is I am supposed to learn from this experience? And how can I move on from this and focus my life in a positive direction?
The guide’s response:
Blessed one, the physical world is about learning and there are many opportunities on a path to complete promises, to fulfill growth. When an element of growth arises and you choose to take it on and fulfill the growth that you need, there are choices. And in those choices there is a vibrational state within you that will know within your being the right choice and the wrong choice for you. It doesn’t mean it would be the right choice or the wrong choice for another being, but for you. You will sense it, you will feel it around the centre of your physical body, that being your heart and your stomach area, it will actually grow tense or uncomfortable it if isn’t right for you.
You were carried away in the spirit of the others and their anger. There is growth in this too, my child. Do not be so angry with yourself. You did make a choice to group together, and many of the things were not right for your being. But you didn’t lose any energy by doing it. Nor did you put out great negative to hurt the universe. Who did you hurt? Yourself. What did you do? You gave yourself growth. The hurt, the growth, that balance you do not understand completely. If you did not feel this hurt you would not have grown. You did feel it. You grew. Congratulations, blessed one. You will never do it again. You now have within the encyclopedia of you that learning, that wisdom. A knowing that words don’t often heal; they can destroy, so they must be surrounded with light and love to create growth for others, and for you.
Do not fear my child. You are an evolved being. You knew. You hoped there would be a different outcome, but even that you questioned at the time. Be wise in knowing that you have grown. And what a wonderful place that is to be in. So be not unhappy. Rejoice and say “thank you” to that that was. It made you uncomfortable. Say, “Thank you. I know I have grown.” Bless you, my child.